Time to Make a Comeback

I am choosing this title for two reasons. One is that I have been gone for a while, and I am choosing to come back. I miss my blog, and I miss trying to make it into something wonderful. I know that my writing has a place in this world, and this is one of the places that it will be found. I am so happy for anyone who has visited, and I plan to get out content more often now, though I cannot promise anything due to some things coming up in my life.

The second reason is that I want to talk about the movie K-Pop Demon Hunters. I know that a lot of my content has been witchcraft-focused, and that is a lot of what I am here for, but, if I am being honest, this place is just a place where I can really be myself and write whatever I want. I hope that others find this valuable one day, but here we are for now. Anyways. I. LOVE. this. movie. I know I’m almost a year late in that, but I finally watched it a couple of weekends ago, and oh my god, it made an impression, and I just have to talk about it.

To start off, I cannot remember if I have been open about this yet or not, but I have depression. Like, it gets really bad sometimes, and it has been pretty bad recently. I am really struggling if I am being honest (just getting back to writing for this blog is helping a teensy bit, though, so that is good), and I am not quite sure how to pull myself back out of it. However, I immediately identified with K-Pop Demon Hunters so strongly even though it is not really about a mental health struggle. But, then again, isn’t it a little bit?

Now this next part is going to include MAJOR SPOILERS, so do not read if you have not seen K-Pop Demon Hunters and still want to see it spoiler-free.

Anyways, for those of you still here with me, first I am going to talk about Rumi because she is the most obvious. With her patterns that she hides from her friends and the world, she obviously has some mental health struggles of her own. She does not feel like she is good enough the way that she is, and that she needs fixed. This is something that I identify with hard-core, so I kind of latched on to her character from the start. She has so much going on, but she does not deserve any of it.

Jinu also has some obvious struggles with his memories of what he did to his sister and mother. Then there is the whole becoming a demon thing that can mess you up, too. He clearly does not think he is good enough either throughout the film.

Then there is Mira and Zoey, who both have struggles of their own though the movie does not really focus on them until Gwi Ma needs their insecurities to make them follow his voice. Nonetheless, they have insecurities (and they are briefly mentioned in the Golden lyrics as well).

I identify with all of these struggles of not feeling good enough, but I love Rumi the most and identify with her the most because her insecurities and struggles literally tear her world apart when they come out. That is how it feels for me. That is how hiding or lessening my depression has felt all of this time. I keep feeling like I am dying because I cannot let everything out and be who I am meant to be, whoever that is. I have to work and be an adult and a mom. How am I supposed to cope with all of these things? The film says it is to be honest about every part of me to everyone, but how can I do that when it might mean losing my job or my partner?

So I sit here and romanticize the film and watch it over and over again because it has what I feel that I cannot. Honesty and a life fully lived.

I’ll get back to where I am supposed to be eventually, and I will keep watching KPop Demon Hunters because it makes me feel good. About myself and about the world. To anyone who reads this, though, I want you to know that you are enough by being yourself. I need to tell myself that more, too. We will make it together, and maybe KPop Demon Hunters can help us along the way.

book-review book-reviews books Comeback debt debt relief Depression fantasy financial-magic hazbin-hotel kpop KPop Demon Hunters life lifestyle Mental Health money-magic movie music netflix new year's resolution prosperity prosperity magic reading sorcery spirituality wealth witch witchcraft witches witchy