Loser, Baby

Witch. It’s part of my tagline. Part of my identity. However, it has not always been that way. I admit, when I was growing up and up into my (very) early adulthood, I was a Christian like so many children grow up in the US. I would not say that I was devout, but when I believed in Christianity, my faith in that particular system was immense. I went the whole nine yards. I was conservative. I was vehemently “pro-life.” I was good.

Of course, I eventually went to college, and I discovered a whole new world. Actually, if I’m being honest, my whole new world was hard to find. Before I did find it, I first found an abusive relationship. He perpetuated the Christian beliefs that I had brought with me from childhood, and my beliefs and relationship with him became my own prison. This is mostly for backstory, by the way. He was horrible, and I am not sure how to fully revisit him. Maybe one day I will here. For now, the point is that around the time that I separated myself from him, I separated myself from religion for a very long time.

Fast forward to now, and I fully practice witchcraft and don’t feel so afraid of having a spiritual practice. Not that my practice is strict in any way, but it is how I like it.

Anyway, I was inspired to write this piece by the song Loser, Baby from Hazbin Hotel. Or maybe by Hazbin Hotel in general, that song is just my favorite from the first season. Let me explain. What finally turned me away from Christianity was the abuse that I suffered, and it was because I saw similarities between the abuse I endured and what was necessary to keep from burning in hell. It was all abuse. I did not want to have any part in any of it.

What is the first season of Hazbin Hotel about, but overcoming a heaven with abusive tendencies? How many people really deserve to burn in hell for all of eternity just because they did not grovel to a god that is supposed to love them? Abuse is not love. It’s not love when a human does it to another human, why would it be love when a god does it? Supposed omniscience does not make it ok to hurt other beings.

Maybe this is not the point that the first season of Hazbin Hotel was trying to make, but it was why I felt so connected to the show immediately. But what do I know, I’m just a loser, baby.

So, yeah. That’s my first blog post. I would say that I don’t want to alienate any potential Christian readers because, really, my number one ideal is that people should be free to practice whatever they believe (assuming those beliefs will not harm other people), but being a witch probably alienates them all the same. Occultism and all that. I’m excited about starting this blogging journey and look forward to creating more content!

❤ Stitch Rowan ❤

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